So I’m up doing homework so I can just have a lazy day on Sunday. But nooo, it gets ruined even more when I sleep late. It’s already 3 and I’m still awake.. yes it’s still early to me but my mom is going to wake me up and damn right I won’t be in a good mood. So I’m just typing up my homework because I just remember kinda last minute AFTER I turned off my computer so I went to my older sister’s computer just to type it and print it out. I spent 30 minutes trying to indent the small paragraphs since my english teacher is a little anal on that, but that wasn’t the problem. The problem was I was asking my oldest sister to help me indent.. BUT NOOOO! She was too “sleepy” or “tired” to help me.. come on.. it takes 2 minutes to do.. if you knew how to use word.. but yeah, she wouldn’t even bother AT ALL .. all she said was “do it tomorrow” while just lying there in bed. yeah. Fuck that. Why would I just stop working, turn off the computer, and then come back tomorrow morning WITH THE SAME FUCKING PROBLEM?! Then same thing happens with my parents too .. they don’t understand either.. just a bunch of bullshit… I’m only mad at the fact that she didn’t even bother helping me .. and my parents clearly didn’t understand my problem. Until then, my other older sister comes and saves me. You can always rely on her, though I get mad at her a lot, we’re family.. if I didn’t do this then we wouldn’t be close. Yeah. Thanks sis -__-

I finished thanks to my other sis. see, I’m thankful for her helping me with that even though she didn’t want to. Just made my night. Too bad I’m still too pissed off to sleep… yeah still really mad now.

Okay.bye. fuckers. Excluding 1 person at least >.>

Well tom came over this morning and was persistant to staying for a week like he always does… why do I always feel so krabby when you’re here?! :/

Yes, I have this friend who I love to the bottom of my heart. To the point of every little thing can tick you off, just like a sibling. Yes, I worry if something happened to you and I would be there for you. But, sometimes .. it’s TOO much. She always talk about her problems that seem SOOO major, but in reality, if you open your ears and hear what you’re saying.. then you’d agree with me on how stupid and minor your problems may be. And when she is with or talking about her bf.. I don’t feel like I’m in the same world as her.. or maybe I’m just stuck in her own little world trying to play along with her “fate” which can be fairly annoying. One wrong word and I get so much complaints. So retarded.. and worst of all I’m not half done talking Dx..

Kbai.

There are times when my mood is crabby or maybe most of the time. But, family is usually there to help you ( even if you do start taking out your anger on them which means your just very close with them if you fight a lot).

As usual I was stuck at “prison” and it’s been a week since people had driven me home for a while. Now I’m recollecting the memories of the total boredom and not to mention how trapped I feel when I’m there. You cannot do anything in that “prison” besides sit there and wait until you return. Even though she was pretty late ( for understandable reasons) she came for me! (: as I escaped that prison I was able to finish all things I needed on time and even though I over exagerate on many things, this just proves how much of the impact you guys bring to me. For this 1 little thing. I truely appreciate it. Thank you everyone who helped me! Yes. I go off topic a lot haha xD

Kthxbai.

Just waiting is starting to kill me. D: Is there a faster way to get home? :[ so much homework to do, but not much I can do since all the things I need are at home :[ .. okay not that much home work, but I’ll probably stay up a little longer tonight finishing what i need >< rawr being stuck here!

Winter nights are so painfully cold.. but it pays off when your blankets are snuggly warm! :D goodnight!

Kthxbai.

Waiting here can be such a pain. Not too much, but.. it gets hard to withstand after a while. And when I mean a while, I mean this has been on going for about more than a year. I’m usually stuck waiting here for a while until I can return home. There are many things i despise about “here”. 1. All I can do is sit inside a compact room where it’s hard to move around and the only thing I can do is sit on the chair. 2. There is nothing to do, recently (probably like 2 months ago) I had brought my laptop here to kill some more time, but that isn’t working since the internet is too slow (but i am grateful). 3. I can’t do as I please here such as walking around the place, but I may just be a burden to everyone which i hate. I cannot go home whenever I wish, well I probably could try, but who knows what would happen? Now it’s during the winter time and I am freezing since there are not enough jackets, towels, etc. to shield me from the cold. I can never finish my homework just because I get home really late usually after 9:30 and afterwards. What else can I do here? Nothing. And there are others who I am jealous of. Before, they would also suffer with me, complain with me, and also had the desire to learn how to drive. Now they can, but I’ve been left behind. It’s just so irritating that i’m here. Just, how much longer do I have to stay? This isn’t prison, but it’s starting to feel like one when i’m just alone here stuck doing nothing. -____-

kbai.

Censorship on the internet? Really? Do you guys notice on how much internet has helped us learn, socialize, and improved our lives? Yes, there can be many down sides because people tend to take “advantage” of this opportunity. But think about how many people will be affected upon this, yet you guys are still willing to take away a part of our freedom? You think this will stop and prevent corruption? Think again, no matter what you do.. corruption will find a way to surface. Remember the ban of alcohol? How did you think it turned out? Well, this may be the same issue except this is with the internet blockage and this time you guys will be hurting many of our futures. There is many more types of complaints I could type, but this is the main thing i wanted to point out. Besides.. we had internet for the longest time and you choose now to ruin it? I think it’s too late. And also.. you guys are just.. too much.

kbye. No thanks.

Why? Just because I’m not grateful for this.

Well, just made a tumblr to get away from things. It’s a little late I know xD, but also I feel like a need a good ol’ ranting buddy. Does not matter if I’m talking to myself (which I probably will be from now on) I just need something to calm my anger (which has increased dramatically over the few months). So hi tumblr. My new friend (:

Kthxbai.